Hi,

Well I finally miscarried, it took a long time but we decided to do it naturally or unassisted so we let it happen in it's own time. I bled for about 3 weeks and then 'birthed' the 'sac' [sorry i'm really not sure of the correctness of these terms but you get what I mean]

If I had been more prepared we would have had a little burial for the baby/sac at home but as it happened it was a surprise that occurred in the supermarket toilet and i was so overwhelmed i just flushed it.

I feel regret about that but I had to have a little chuckle, for all my homegrown and spiritual beliefs about birth etc my babe decided to reveal itself in town, in a supermarket.

I feel good that we did it the way we did, my last miscarriages I got over and done quickly with D & Cs in hospital, this time we had lots of time to grieve and feel the feelings and let my body do it in it's time.

My Michael was very loving and supportive and felt as sad as I did. So I'm feeling sad but good. We didn't plan that pregnancy and now are still feeling strong desires to maybe try for another but we'll just go the way we have been and that is not use contraception, loosely use FAM and see what happens. Apart from that all is reasonably well with us.

Orlenna